Real World to Online World Reality Check

To say it’s been awhile is an understatement. You’re probably wondering what in the world was she doing between Halloween and now? Did her kids tie her up and throw her in a closet for stealing their Snickers bars? Did she join the circus? Is she Santa Claus?

No to all of those, although those are much more interesting than the truth. The truth is I was busy being a mom and a human. From parent teacher conferences to soccer playoffs to music lessons to Thanksgiving for 10 to holiday concerts and parties and decorating and buying gifts and hosting to throwing a New Year’s Eve party, I was ingrained with my friends and family. And boy did it feel good! Kind of.

While it felt great to be busy and see everyone there was a part of me that craved my online time. To get my thoughts out, to just be me for 5 minutes. Oh and to finish level 683 on Candy Crush which I’ve been permanently stuck on since November now.

It made me think, what is the right balance between human interaction and online time? I always seem to swing the wrong way on the pendulum. Either I’m so into my screen that I wouldn’t see a train come through my living room or it’s buried on my desk where the battery dies and dust fills the screen. And I’m either with friends and family constantly or I’m a robot ushering the kids off to school and grocery shopping in black leggings that are too small and have holes in places that I can cover.

I don’t know if I’ll ever find the right balance. I don’t even know if there is a right balance. It’s almost like I live two different lives and can slide into each one whenever I want without blinking an eye…